dreamland

I just had a nap this afternoon and woke up with the strangest feeling. It's that feeling you get after waking up and having just had a weird, bizzare dream. I dreamed that my mom confessed to me that she had taken drugs and overdosed..and that she had given me drugs when I was younger that allowed me to fly! ha! And then I started doing hard drugs. Bizzare! As I would never even go close to them.. the most overwhelming thing for me though was seeing my mom sob and in such regret and sadness because she had tried drugs and allowed me to. Especially because I've been thinking about my parents a lot lately and their salvation and daily walk with Jesus. Coincidentally (or not..), a complete stranger asked me at church today if my parents were saved, and within two seconds I couldn't talk, and tears just welled up in my eyes. That led me more to think about other families of friends where their sibling or parent doesn't really know Jesus and live a life to which God has called them to. I just want to shake them and scream something like.."You have NO idea what you are missing out on!" Then I thought about my own children when I eventually have kids and how I can do my best to raise them to love God and love others and teach them about their creator and their purpose on earth, but in the end it's really up to them what they decide to believe and live out. I think it's most discouraging when I look around and see my peers who have fallen away from God. I had a conversation a couple months ago with my friends about that exact topic and how their siblings, raised in the same family by loving, solid Christian parents that led by example, just fall away. And then I saw one of today's Sundays Secrets..